We are what we think.

A few years ago, a friend of mine called me from an unfamiliar number, which was weird since I already had three numbers for him saved into my phone. When I asked how many phone numbers he had, he steadily replied: "Enough."

"Enough" is also the number of journals I keep, and today I'm pulling quotes from the Buddha journal. "The Buddha journal" may sound like something that contains peaceful reflections about the nature of existence, but that's a generous interpretation. It's basically just the fourth Breakaway journal (journals 1 - 3 have been overly-flatteringly excerpted here) with a picture of a Buddha statue on the cover.

So here are some quotes I like from the Buddha journal, which all come from the 2016 calendar year, and I can't imagine they'll mean much to anyone who isn't me, but that's okay.

Five years of Tour d'Esprit

Tour d'Esprit is a 24-hour foot relay that benefits Haiti Medical Missions of Memphis. It's held every October and funds the clinic for the entire year. Breakaway has two teams each year: the race team (which is serious) and the fun team (which is more about having someone moving on the course for the full 24 hours). I have been a loyal fun team member since 2011.

October 8, 2011 (from Breakaway journal #1):

Friday night I did Tour d'Esprit from 9:30 - 10:00 p.m. (3 miles), randomly at the same time X was running [for the race team]. Talked a little to Y (he seems really nice), met Z (he seems really creepy), and overall had one of the nicest evenings I can remember having with running people. It was quiet and dark and everyone was serious about running and it was good. Instead of being too riled up to sleep, I came home relaxed and was able to go straight to bed.

The next day, Saturday, I came back for the grand finale (X was still running) and watched Breakaway['s race team] break their own record. 242 miles in 24 hours. Wow...

October 7, 2012 (from Breakaway journal #2):

It was 80 degrees this year when Tour d'Esprit got underway at 3:00 p.m. About 7:00 or so, a front pushed through, bringing strong winds and heavy rain and much cooler temperatures. By the time I showed up at 8:30, the few people remaining at the Breakaway/Speedy Cats tent were crouched and wet under lowered tents. 

Miles was running for the fun team through the front...

S. showed up to hang out and he let me borrow a jacket to run in. And thank God. It only rained on me the first mile and a half or so, but I seriously think I might have gotten hypothermia if I hadn't been wearing it. I did 8 miles total, in roughly the 9:00 - 10:30 slot (I think I started a little late).

Afterward, 2013

The run was good. Chilly, but peaceful. I like doing Tour d'Esprit at night. There was a fire going when I got done, and more people had shown up now that there was a break in the rain... I chugged a beer, then returned to the tent to put on some more clothes before heading home...

I came back after lunch on Saturday. Olaf and Cameron were trading miles [for the race team]. Bill and Faith were running for the fun team. [I was scheduled for 2:00 - 2:30, and] at 1:45 it started raining... For the second time in 18 hours, thank God for S.'s jacket.

I did 3 fast miles in the rain, then handed off to Miles, and Allie ran the final 3 for our team (she showed up late just to watch, but took one for the team and gave us a strong finish). The fun team wound up second among the co-eds, and the race team creamed the competition with an incredible 238 miles - only 4 fewer than last year's record-setter, and with fewer runners and intermittent downpours. (Cameron put in 23 sub-6:00 miles.)

October 4, 2013 (from 2013 daily journal):

7 miles (+ 3 walking) --> Tour d'Esprit. Was supposed to be at least 8, maybe 9 [as my last long run before the Chicago Marathon], but A. decided to pull me out after 5 and stick Mason in my place in an attempt to beat the Journeymen team. The shit hath hitteth the fan. We had it out, but she doesn't get it.

October 5, 2013:

2 hard miles --> Tour d'Esprit. The fun team was decimated by Journeymen, but we almost caught up to Fleet Feet in an inspiring last-ditch effort as a team (I ran an 8:42 mile; A. offered to run but she was drunk). I am exhausted from the past 2 days... 

October 3, 2014 (from 2014 daily journal):

8 miles --> Tour d'Esprit. Longest run without a walk break (7:30 - 9:00 p.m.) in...ages. And it was hard... Had an hour to catch up with Allie before she ran... COLD when the sun went down.

October 4, 2014:

...he called and we discussed our weekends, and he talked me into spending a farm day solo [rather than going back to Tour d'Esprit], which I did...  

October 2, 2015 (from 2015 daily journal):

3 miles --> Tour d'Esprit. I am SO TIRED today... I left right after my slot, which was supposed to be 7:30 - 8:00, but was pushed to 8:00 - 8:30. N. was drinking his thirteenth beer when I left, with a goal of 32, and why are we celebrating this behavior?

October 3, 2015:

8 miles --> Tour d'Esprit. 8:00 - 9:30 a.m. and my legs were already tired when I woke up! No walk breaks, though. Came back (after a shower, food, and attempt at a nap) for the 1:00 - 3:00 slot, but didn't have to run (whew!)... COLD and DARK day but really nice time around the fire, drinking and talking. Race team won with 202 miles. Strange, lightly-attended year this year, with several on the race team running solo instead of trading off, and a pregnant woman running the last hour. N. drank 38 beers and did 32 miles in 24 hours. And he drove home...

Selected Quotes from the Breakaway Journals, Part Two!

(I've posted more in the past nine days than I have in the past five months and no, I don't know why.  Let's just roll with it.)

Two years ago, I published a bunch of context-less and phenomenally self-involved quotes from the series of journals I've kept about Breakaway. It's probably my favorite thing I've posted on this blog. Reading through my hand-selected highlights is so much more satisfying than reading the full journals, which are not nearly so eloquent and mostly full of damning stories about me being an idiot.

Today, for no particular reason, I present Part 2.  (Here's Part 1.)

Selected Quotes from the Breakaway Journals, Hooray!

(Eh, I knew I wouldn't be able to stay away too long.)

Yesterday I wasn't feeling well, so I used my unexpected downtime to spend a little time with my favorite person:  me.

Me has a complicated system of journals that, upon Me's death, could easily be combined with Me's blogs and Me's books to recreate Me's entire life.  Yesterday, it was the Breakaway journals (two and a half books and counting) that were pulled from the shelf.

Here are a few selected quotes that I liked (and that weren't too incriminating) and that will probably make no sense to any of you because I have provided zero context.  Enjoy this extremely selfish entry, which puts even my usually extremely selfish entries to shame, yay!